Funny how what was once something that brought two people together can have totally different meanings once the two people split up. This song was totally one of me and the Kick's favorite songs, i even fancied him my own JT at times. We always had such a good time dancing and music was something that was a big part of our good memories and good times.

And now this song is pretty painful. Knowing that i had such strong feelings towards him, that i thought we had something so special, all for naught, because he obviously never felt the same way. I still would rather have not ever have felt how i felt with him rather than the "better to have loved and lost etc" bullshit. I put all i had into the relationship. The deployment. I stayed true, faithful, supportive and proud of him. I have  never felt like anyone i ever went out with was a waste of time, even in the really bad ones. But I wasted it all on this one. I wasted a year of my life and heart and tears on someone who would reject me and all i had to offer for a few grand in the bank. That's what i was told, anyway. I honestly don't know the why.

But i'm taking this song in a way to know that i do have the capacity to put myself and my heart out there completely and that I can do it again. It will come back around to me, and that there is someone out there who has the ability to make what goes around come back around, and for me i know that what will come back around to me will be awesome and wonderful and actually genuine, because what i put out there was pure and truthful, vulnerable, and most of all genuine.


Lyrics | Justin Timberlake lyrics - What Goes Around Comes Around lyrics