in an attempt to do this little project today, i had an epoxy incident and have now glued my doorbell shut. i'm clearly not made for crafting, or DIY anything.

now i have to find a new doorbell situation.

Fun: DIY Enter Key Doorbell

Food: The morning Pre-eat: champagne mimosas, and some chunky soup (i am obviously living solo)
The Actual Dinner for 5: Whole Virginia Ham, 2 kinds of whole fish - one stuffed, one fried, bbq shrimp, fried turkey, fried green tomatoes topped with lump crabmeat, shrimp tempura, cheddar potatoes au gratin, stuffing stuffing stuffing, green bean casserole, chiffon cake with berries and creme freche

Parents: Dad crankay, Mom just like in A Christmas Story and did not sit down the whole meal.
Leftovers: Tons of food, bottle of merlot and from mom: 2 paris of shoes - purple steve madden flats, and lavendar short uggs.

Pixel scored herself some turkey, snuck a shrimp off my plate while i wasn't looking, and some fried green tomatoes.

weight gain: approx 4lbs if not more.

fried green tomatoes and fried shrimp

From fried green tomato topped with lump crabmeat

From virginia ham saaaalty

This Breakup Song of the Day came on the radio and i never really was a big fan of it, mostly b/c i was jealous hatin on Alicia Silverstone.

The lyrics do mirror me and the ex-kick. we got together under hard circumstances, and i've never cried out of happiness of loving someone so much, and now i really am trying to forget him, and it kills me that i let him in so deep into my heart. we were best friends. Partners in crime, he had that something that just hooked me completely. Augh. This is freaking me out. the whole thing.

Lyrics | Aerosmith lyrics - Cryin' lyrics

however, i'm now loving me some Alicia Silverstone since she did Clueless.

breakup, song, aerosmith, alicia silverstone

ok, this is totally corny and take this as a warning and proof that lack of sleep brings about actions and behaviors that you would not do if you were your normal sane self. one 4:30am night as i was having another sleepless deployment night i was browsing the apple apps store and came across a tarot card a day app...and as i had just been reduced to watching some "women's show" on that happened to be about vampires or wiccan women who were living such "alternative lifestyles," i was a little sucked into the app.

so i picked today's card and it is this:

The Sun:
symbolizes: Joy, Success, Happiness, Completion

The sun has arrived and signifies a new beginning. As the dawning of the sun indicates a new day, so the dawining of the sun indicates a new beginning. You have been through a period of change and reflection and you have started on your new path, stronger, wiser and full of new energy. This card brings tremendous possibilities as you stand at the dawn of a new age. This card spells the completion of a cycle and the start of a new cycle, during this time it is wise to relax and enjoy the moment between the end of the old and the start of the new phase.

hmmm, well that is actually pretty nice. especially since just yesterday I had The Talk with the ex-Kick, as he was back in country and i guess the air is cleared, and i am at the start of my new phase.

and now for something terribly cute:



The Flintstones - Open Up Your Heart And Let The Sunshine In

Funny how what was once something that brought two people together can have totally different meanings once the two people split up. This song was totally one of me and the Kick's favorite songs, i even fancied him my own JT at times. We always had such a good time dancing and music was something that was a big part of our good memories and good times.

And now this song is pretty painful. Knowing that i had such strong feelings towards him, that i thought we had something so special, all for naught, because he obviously never felt the same way. I still would rather have not ever have felt how i felt with him rather than the "better to have loved and lost etc" bullshit. I put all i had into the relationship. The deployment. I stayed true, faithful, supportive and proud of him. I have  never felt like anyone i ever went out with was a waste of time, even in the really bad ones. But I wasted it all on this one. I wasted a year of my life and heart and tears on someone who would reject me and all i had to offer for a few grand in the bank. That's what i was told, anyway. I honestly don't know the why.

But i'm taking this song in a way to know that i do have the capacity to put myself and my heart out there completely and that I can do it again. It will come back around to me, and that there is someone out there who has the ability to make what goes around come back around, and for me i know that what will come back around to me will be awesome and wonderful and actually genuine, because what i put out there was pure and truthful, vulnerable, and most of all genuine.


Lyrics | Justin Timberlake lyrics - What Goes Around Comes Around lyrics

from a friend of mine:

"I hope you always stay true to yourself. Don't let people tell you that
you need to change in order to make others happy. Just because one person does things a certain way, doesn't mean it will work for you. Youre great just the way you are."

thanks so much. i hope i'm lucky enough to find the person that thinks the same way of me that you do.

So this post is dedicated to Dr. ER, my awesome buddy in chicago. He gave me an idea to blog about food in NOLA, and this is one huge po-boy pigout porn post dedicated to him. Enjoy, Andy honey!

Po-Boys are the reason i do not eat regular cold sammiches. i mean, why make a sammich out of cold cuts when you can have fried shrimp, ersters (oysters), catfish, or roast beef dripping with gravy, hot sausages, alligator sausage or even, or even french fries with debris gravy? (debris gravy: the roast beef gravy with bits and pieces of the roast beefy goodness) come on now.

I live right by Domilise's Po-boy shop uptown, which was featured on Anthony Bourdain's No Reservations show and the shit is GOOD. And my girl lives by Parkway, which has some damn good po-boys also. They are quite known for their roast beef po-boys.

We ordered a fried catfish and a fried erster po-boy with a side of debris fries. I guarantee you will never see anyone eat with as much glee as we do:

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So, i've been a little M.I.A in the past few weeks...couple of crazy things have happened.

I decided to start streaming live on an internet channel on justin.tv/lizmoney
i tried mogulus.com and ustream.com but mogulus takes too much bandwith
or something, and i got weird buzzing noises on ustream, so i tried
justin.tv. i still have a few odd issues with the sound, i have no idea
what the problem 0is, perhaps it's my really ghettois webcam.

So on my maiden broadcast, i'm havin a good time, talkin to peeps all
over the world, when my boyfriend who is a marine and stationed in iraq
pops up on instant messenger. As a Marine, he doesn't have a webcam, or
even the satellite phone given to him at any regular intervals, so when
i can catch him online, it's a rarity. So, i take a small break from
webcasting to chat a bit with him, and lo. what? where is this
conversation going? he's what? BREAKING UP WITH ME. My boyfriend whom
i've been supporting and haven't seen since last december is breaking
up with me from Iraq over instant messenger in front of an
international audience. i can't believe this. i keep it rolling. hell,
i'm broadcasting my life, and this is what's happening in my life, so
why cut the camera off yet? It doesn't take long. he's made up his
mind. I have no idea why he broke up with me. He said he needed space.

space.

He is in FREAKING IRAQ.

All i can come away with is that being at war, in Iraq is better than
being my boyfriend. Seriously? Seriously. Granted, i don't know what
it's like over there, he's in a situation that no one can understand
unless they have been there. They know that they are out there for
nothing. They know that what little good they are doing for individual
people is not helping out in the long run. They know it's bullshit.
He's not a very militaristic person. Looking at him, you'd never think
he's a military man. He doesn't love guns, violence, or anything like
that. I doubt he enjoys being brainwashed into the machine he has to be
when he is over there. But he has his own reasons for joining and i
know there is a sense of pride in being a Marine. I was proud of him,
too. But i don't know who he is anymore. Some say that he is breaking
up with me to make it easier for him to endure the deployment. Those
that knew us can't believe he dumped me. He spent a year waiting for
me, just being my friend b/c i was in a relationship when we met.

But he's got his mind made up. I realized he does not accept me for who
i am. His love comes with conditions. Conditions that involved me
changing myself as a person to maybe meet whatever requirements he's
been dwelling on in the desert. He started only to focus on money, only
wanted to hear if i've made any extra cash. he wanted me to get a
second job while he saved up all the money, and wanted to know where
the small amt of money he sent home to cover his rent and his share of
the bills was going. I know he gets paid a stipend on top of his salary
that i supposed to go towards financially maintaining his residence
while he's on deployment. I only asked him to keep paying his share of
the rent and a few bills. He didn't want to do that. But he didn't move
out of my house either.

So he expected me to get a second job on top of dealing with him being
gone, and going through my first deployment, wondering if he'll be
alive or dead every day, i have no support network, i don't know anyone
in the military or anyone who has ever dated anyone in the military.
And all he wants out of this deployment is to hoard up all his earnings
plus the money he was getting paid for to maintain the house that he
didn't want to send home.

Whatever his side really is, he's not told me, and doubt that he ever
will. He'd never skip out on a lease on roomates that he doesn't even
know well, but he can just up and send his boy over to get all his
stuff out of my house and that seems ok to him b/c he's not going to
have to send any more money home. Never mind how he's pulled out my
whole world from underneath me. AND skipped out on his lease. So much
for honor and all that.

I'm not bitter, I'm not even that angry anymore. Just disillusioned and
a whole different kind of trust has been broken. I suppose it's better
now than in the long run, i feel that if we had kids and they needed
braces, would he skip out too b/c he didn't want to invest in his kid's
braces? That is a sad sad thing to thought to come into your head about
your significant other.

So that's why i've been absent from the internets. Since the breakup
happened online, i was pretty e-shy there for a few days. I couldn't
bring myself to get online. Like having an aversion to the bar you and
an ex used to frequent. And of course, the radio has been my enemy. All
the songs that i could have not wanted to ever hear again came on. But
the analog days did me good. I have had time to regroup, rethink and
rebuild myself, and i'm back.

I log back on after 3 days offline, and my twitter peeps are all "3
days of no lizmoney!!! are you ok?" and to a bunch of emails from the
justin.tv peeps asking if i'm ok since i haven't broadcasted since.
Even my socialbrowse.com peeps were wonderin where i was, and Chris
Pirillo himself said some kind words to me. So even though most of my
support group has been virtual, it's real peeps behind the screens and
it helped me get through the tough times.

Ah, till the next dramas....

wtf, breakup, deployment, lizmoney, justin.tv

This is an old old song by Robert Palmer, way before Addicted to love about some bombass girl named Julia. i have loved this song ever since i first heard it and hope that one day, someone thinks of me like this:

Hey, hey Julia, you're acting so peculiar
I know I'd never fool you in a million years
A horn section you resemble and your figure makes me tremble
And I sure would like to handle what's between your ears
You're a temptation to a man
I could not resist you and I won't if I can
You're so unexpected and whatever you injected made me feel how I felt when I sang

Hey, hey Julia you're acting so peculiar
I know I'd never fool you in a million years
You're a strain on my eyeses** and you're full of surprises
Love materializes soon as you come near.
There's a sensation you create,
Robs me of my sleep and I've forgotten the date
My head started spinning soon as you started singing
And like a fish I just rose to the bait.

Hey, hey Julia with your crazy sense of humor
You turn fact into rumor soon as you come near
A horn section you resemble and your figure makes me tremble
And I sure would like to handle what's between your ears
You're a temptation to a man
I could not resist you and I won't if I can.
You're so unexpected and whatever you injected made me feel how I felt when I sang
Julia, you're a danger just like giving sweets to strangers
And I think it's time I took you in hand.

**and he says "eyeses"!! i love it. you know i say "pantses" "jeanses" "soapses" so this excites me to no end. he really should know me.